Friday, November 14, 2008
i can see e end really coming real soon. believe me. finally things r jus gonna pan out like what i tink it shd. i really duno wad's gg on now... i jus cannot define it. no "naughty things" happened... jus more norm... eating and crapping... yups... but den of cux... i tink he knows tt no matter how bad his character is, im still willing to stay and accept... but little does he know tt i have already started to check out of everything emotionally slowly... yes. i guess tis is e very least i can do to protect myself for now. i know tt i will feel bad n stupid sometimes but den tt jus comes with e territory of this... i guess i jus have to accept e harsh facts tt im not living better den ever but at least i still gain back my dignity.
of cux i still hope my knight in shining armour can come really soon but den... haha... reality and dreams dun always match, don't they? okies... not it sounds more drama and comical den wad im actually feeling right now... but wadever huh...
anyone who chances upon tis entry pls seriously heck it cux it's quite lame... hahas... i jus needed an outlet to drama a little bit... =p
lastly.. i jus seriously hope tt everything turns out well and of cux i will actually feel happier, like much happier den im feeling now...
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im so sian now... stuffed myself with loads of food yet not feeling any better or happier. y? instead i feel more fat than ever. narnia is on tv now. im a little happier now. too lazy to go on e freaking bike. hate to sweat. yet need to sweat it out. y? tmr hope everything will go fine.
i jus only want to b happy. is tt too much to ask for?
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